prince charming

i heard truth today. a very simple, yet undeniably profound truth. it has made me think, wonder, and even question myself and my reasons all afternoon.
and from the most bizarre of sources at that. for the sake of confidentiality i'll simply title this person as an old friend. however it is one with whom i try not to converse on a regular basis for reasons you don't really need to know. anyway, it was said:

"guys are simple. they want to be loved; they want to find the girl they think is worth taking the chance on and then they go for it."

i started thinking about it... musing, if you will. i went on a rant to my roommate this morning (prior to hearing this statement) about guys and their idiosyncrasies, their subtle melodramatics, their less subtle neediness, and their often blatant disregard for our over-politeness and/or desire to keep them at arm's length. however after hearing this, i realized that in my current showcases, [yes, plural- i’m just that good] it does seem to ring true; a guy’s simple desire to be loved. and while i speculate how many would openly admit to this, i have come to believe it as fact. as for guys being simple, however… i dare to speculate otherwise. ;)

not being a member of the male gender, i cannot rightfully take a stand on the last part, but it certainly does sound blissfully romantic. those of you who know me may suggest otherwise, but i have been known to dabble in romantic moments myself on one occasion or another although i do generally prefer to keep [as of recent years anyway] my heart and emotions entirely out of the picture when dealing with men. it’s just less complicated. or so i had thought…

regardless, i do appreciate the insight. i feel (almost) guilty for participating in the recent labeling of the entire male species as ‘stupid, stupid boys’ for i’ve come to see that a lot of the confusion rests in me. in my inability reach beyond the high stone walls protecting my vulnerability i’ve wrongfully judged, pronounced sentences up on, and even carelessly walked upon some honest and truly amazing guys.

Gentlemen, i apologize. you (plural) are intriguing, valiant (sometimes), generally good-natured, mostly kind-hearted and while more often than not still confusing, overall I deem you as good. [does that sound too terribly pessimistic? haha]

i want a man who i can respect; a man who makes me fall for him. i want someone to look up to and unashamedly call mine; someone to cook, clean, and look really hott for; someone who makes my heart beat faster every time i see him smile at me. i wouldn’t mind it if he were funny and witty and was the ‘life of the party’. i’d prefer it if he were rich and handsome; someone with dreams and goals like mine who understands me and will fight for me when necessary. i want a man with whom fun is a constant; a man who reaches for my hand first and deems me his “girl worth taking the chance on.”

from a girl’s perspective this phrase would read:

“girls are complicated, but they just want to be loved. they want to be found, captivated, and won over by the guy who wants them the most and actually goes for it. and perhaps with the nicest car.”

alright, alright. the last part was a joke.

are my desires too unreasonable? too far-fetched or fairy-tailed, perhaps? i hope not.

not for God, anyway…

today i am thankful for my little dachshund (although he drives me crazy sometimes), mister oscar. also thankful for beautiful things to surround myself with, including but not limited to: tristan jewel and co! tankful for fun stationary, cold beers, and internet connection staying connected long enough to post my scrambled thoughts for today. and last but not least… good music!